I am listening to Jeremy Camp's "There will be a day" . . . It gives me hope and encouragement to get through tough days when I know what the finish line will look like . . . check out this story on CNN: http://www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/meast/04/26/iraq.christian.attacks/index.html . . . it makes me sad, grateful and humbled that I am blessed to live in a place where I won't die because of my beliefs . . . I pray for those who lost loved ones and I pray for the extremists that killed them . . . I pray for a Saul moment for them, that God would show them The Way . . . I pray that good would come out of this tragedy . . . I am up way later than I should be . . . Support raising has been discouraging of late, which has made me want to give up (if I am honest with myself) but I won't . . . that would be the easy way out and I am tired of taking the easy way out . . . the more I am in Orlando, the more I know my heart and call is in Ft. Myers . . . which doesn't make leaving Orlando any easier . . . I love the NBA playoffs, it's the best part of the year . . . when Isiah (my oldest nephew) is old enough to drive, I'll be 30 . . . that's scary . . . He'll be playing football and baseball in high school by then, which will be cool . . . he's a good kid (along with his younger brother) and I wish my sister would see that more often . . . I love lamp . . . I don't have a high value of myself . . . I'm working on changing that . . . one of my favorite shows is Real World/Road Rules challenges . . . it's like watching a train wreck . . . you can't stop watching it to see what happens next . . . I miss dad . . . I am excited for what the rest of the year holds for me . . . I think it will be great . . . I hope Kris Allen wins American Idol and Melissa and Tony win DWTS . . . I think I should go to bed now . . . have a wonderful night!